…from your mouth to God’s ears. Apparently November makes people crazy with the stressors of the holidays, and apparently I am no exception to this rule. I tried to brush off Thanksgiving this year, simply because I just don’t feel much like hosting, cooking, cleaning or eating anything except perhaps some Chinese take out. After declaring my boycott of our typical traditional Thanksgiving, I was “strongly encouraged” to cook dinner and invite the normals.
Sooo here I sit here trying to pull together a menu of foods that I don’t like – all so I won’t be inclined to eat “all the carbs” since that’s what I’ve been doing for the past couple weeks – non stop. I’ve had the blah’s and I’m sure it’s the fault of the weather and the impending holidays. Thing is, I’m not a holiday hater at all, in fact I love Thanksgiving and Christmas, like a lot! But…I am a do it all kinda person (read control freak) and I’m tired. I’d rather focus my energies somewhere else. A trip perhaps, a family vacation – a relaxing Alaskan cruise, a red eye flight to Bermuda, a leisurely drive to South Dakota – all scream YES? I really don’t want to put a lot of effort into the holidays because really…who cares? It’s all been taken for granted for years and who am I to believe I haven’t created monsters out of the people that do enjoy these seasonal traditions? Packing on the over-indulgence repeatedly only to have it repeated a couple times a year – with again, more indifference to the day – seems kinda mind-numbingly ridiculous to keep putting myself through this considering I’m not sure what my “pay off” is.
I surely don’t care about gifts, I don’t care about working constantly to make sure the house is perfect and all the lights on the tree are placed correctly, I don’t care what people think about me, my home, my traditions or lack thereof. I care about spending time with my family, having fun and making memories. I just wonder if finally I’m completely brainwashed on one the two schools of thought; 1.) That Christmas is pretty much a thing of the past since religion is a dying belief and not to mention WAY over commercialized for it to be anything good or 2.) Christmas is THE holiday, the ONLY holiday! Go crazy! Start in July – the over planning, over indulging, over feeding, over spending!! Jesus is the reason for the season!! I lean towards 2, but it’s simply not effective for me any longer, at least not the way I’ve done it in the past. It simply does not garner what I am in search of.
The girls are in their teens now, so the magic of Christmas is not what it used to be. The joy and excitement of Christmas morning is lost on “more sleep” and snapchat streaks. As of this very moment, I’m leaning toward one tree instead of three, a small dinner for the four of us and simple minimalistic gifts. As my best friend’s words ring in my ear concerning my now revised Thanksgiving plans, “…don’t go overboard…”. I’m going to try to heed her advice and simply chose to do what matters.
Wish me luck, as I am really no different than the other millions of sheep, I too become caught up. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that this year I can focus on the things that ultimately do matter and truly enjoy the holidays.